July 6, 2012
And while you’re at it why don’t you kill the Jews? Kill the mentally ill? Kill the blacks? Kill the poor?
Since this new health plan has gone into effect that Obama finally got passed I’ve been reading post after post on facebook about it. I’m not real educated as far as the health plan goes but I understand the general gist of it. I think. Not sure everyone else understands it. I think. All I do know is I’ve been reading a lot of posts criticizing welfare. It makes me feel like I’m being attacked and I also feel shame. I never thought that I’d be on welfare, collecting food stamps etc.
I’ve read things like people on welfare shouldn’t have any luxuries. What if I had these luxuries before I needed welfare? Like my laptop that’s several years outdated anyway. I’ve sold most things I own of value and kept the things that wouldn’t sell. I did eventually lose my car due to my finances. I have disabilities that make it difficult if not impossible to hold a job. People may look at me and see me like someone that could hold a full time job but that’s on the outside. I am considered a high functioning disabled person mentally. I also have a physical disorder nicknamed the suicide disease due to the unpredictable pain intensity. I am waiting out disability and they are playing the waiting game to see how long I go before I break down and get a job.
I’m working on getting better, seeing therapists, groups and doctors. I feel better but I don’t know if I could handle work yet. Maybe I will get well enough to work but right now I don’t know. I don’t know what I would do without the little amount of government assistance, food stamps and Medicaid. The Medicaid alone covers over $600 a month in medications that I could never afford even if I had a full time job. If I went back to work it would take months to qualify for healthcare even under the new healthcare laws.
There’s some good things too. I’ve learned how to live and eat like a poor man. Some of the food isn’t good for me but it’s cheaper than healthier food but I manage to eat that too. I’m cooking more and never prepared food. I was a microwave and eat out kind of person. Not anymore. I budget what little money I get and I manage to pay my important bills like rent, phone and internet. Rent first for obvious reasons. Phone second because I need the phone to communicate with family, friends, doctors, lawyers etc. The internet third so I can try and keep selling things like my art and such.
I grew up thinking that welfare was for single mothers, the handicapped and people that are stealing from the system. I learned not to judge now that I need the assistance whether it’s temporary or permanent. Why do I feel such anger and shame when people have the same attitudes I once had? I didn’t want to be here.I don’t want to be here. I am. Deal with it. Things will change and I won’t judge.
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June 18, 2012
Bagels and cream cheese at the end of my street
Comical caravans drive by my feet
Stick it to man and I get stabbed in the back
Ain’t no lovin for me just quite yet
The edge of the park is a nice place to rest
Light a mouthful of grass- the fresh picked best
Share it with the children and get poked with a stick
Ain’t no lovin for me quite just yet
Light three candles at the corner Catholic Church
For the three that I love who never got the hearst
My Sunday best clothes melt a holy water scam
Ain’t no lovin for me quietly quite yet
Oh driver oh driver do drive me away
Far from this level of the story I am stuck
Where the joke has no punch line
And I don’t give a skunk
Ain’t no love for me until I am ready you
Not just quite yet
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June 16, 2012
I’ve been writing a lot of poetry lately and posting it on a poetry page on Facebook. I’ll be publishing a poetry collection by October or so called Underground Modern Poets of 2012 collecting various poetry from many diverse people.
Here’s a few samples
Healing — part V
by Art Glib
i am resigned
and
there will always be a place
on the path of
my lifeline
that leads to
the spiral grip of true and
undeniable love
clinching at my heartstrings this day
i reconcile
to denounce sadness
bitterness or hate
seeing them as the impish thieves they are
they are like the anchor on the Edmund Fitzgerald
i have the power to do this-we all do
it was what it was
and we are who we are
i feel the joy on my
face as i
raise your praise to the sky
i feel the heat of
life giving sun
it’s like the way i feel
when i think of the best of us
a place of pristine truth
two souls in a corporation of flesh
a place where i wish you
peace of mind
love
happiness
and an
abundance of good things
bless us
and let no sweeping thoughts
of disdain
corrupt the pure remnants of your smile and laughter
i will not let anger steal those from me
i am not going to risk losing the locket of your memory
that i hold to my breast when you are in my thoughts
good bye
good luck
Godspeed
i love you
sQt 2008
Untitled
by Anthony Gray
When everything’s lost
and life seems surreal
When everything crashes
and nothing is real
When sorrow seeps in
and all that you feel
is confusion and madness
How do you deal?
Where will you go?
Where will you go?
When no one is sorry
for nothing they’ve done
Where will you go now?
Where will you run?
Everything dies
and the time will come
when the days grow too short
to mourn every one
When life’s vicious cycle
throws you ‘neath the wheels
and there’s no one to turn to
How do you deal?
Where will you go?
Where will you go?
When no one is sorry
for nothing they’ve done
Where will you go now?
Where will you run?
When it’s all said and done
it’s hard to regret
knowing full well the sun
is determined to set
When smoke in your eyes
can no longer conceal
You just let it mask you
and that’s how you deal.
Where will you go?
Where will you go?
When no one is sorry
for nothing they’ve done
Where will you go now?
Where will you run?
When you’re all alone
and the passion is gone
Can you keep your own head up?
Or where will you run?
OmnImpotence
by KrackPipe Ken
through the gloom
a dreary moon
lay soundless on the sod
a haunting tune
from dead leaves strewn
engirdled brooding god
“if I am naught,”
aghast he thought,
“but smoke and grim façade
“from womb to tomb…
…then only doom…
the deadless treadless trod.”
Little Boy Little Toy
by Jo Hewitt
Men and my pen always a dangerous combination, I’ve gone there before I’ll never be anyone’s whore I feel they never see me as real well you better duck and cover for I’m about to tell you about your own private hell mamma’s boy using women as your toy you’re invited to have a say but not have things your own way 41yrs of age you have a fit a real child’s rage in your childhood room you cause doom and gloom action figures a twin bed what a man you can barely tie your own shoes it’s no wonder it’s not you I choose grow up don’t blow up nonsense lies you spout a never ending fount try again a slave to the children you crave whine away for you I will not pine child in a mans body
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May 27, 2012
I woke up in an episode of Charlie Sheen’s new television show for some reason. I was dumped off or fell into it. I felt beaten up and dirty. I watched how they referenced 2 and a Half Men and even got the characters to appear and wondered how they got the rights to do that. The set looked funny and sparse.
I ended up at the exit of a Hooters restaurant and I was counting my Hooters’ t-shirts someone gave me. I started talking to one of the waitresses about her bad tips because they worked near a casino and there were too many older people at they’re establishment. I watched her collect dollar and coin tips and felt bad. Then a group of teenagers drove by and threw more coins at the waitress walking me outside the restaurant. They were customers being assholes. I asked the girl if there were any bars near by to pick up take out. She pointed out several and I spotted a liquor store and realized it was earlier in the day than I thought it was. I checked my pockets for money as I walked towards thee illuminating lights of the store that sold liquor. I had enough to get drunk and that was ok with me as I tried to figure out where I was and how I got there.
On my way to pick up some beer and whiskey I checked my voicemails on my cell phone. It was Rebecca my first true love of my youth. The first one I planned to marry. It was a weird message to me. Apparently we were still a couple or a couple again. She was angry and forgiving for something I had just did which explained my abandonment in this town wherever I was. She wanted to remind me about November. I had no idea what she was talking about but happy she wasn’t mad about whatever I did that day or the day before. I forgot about buying the booze and woke up.
Winning.
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May 25, 2012
“Just when I thought I was out…they pull me back in.” Michael Corleone Godfather III
The following response was posted about my poster (above) for an upcoming event I posted.
A fairly famous author and filmmaker about serial killers said “I would argue the poster is moronic. A lot of us, including myself as a true crime author, are here “in the business” of profiting from people’s fascination with serial killers, but few of us forget that in the final analysis there are victims and families whose lives are destroyed by the acts that serial killers perpetrate. Unless there is some forensic reason, I de-identify victim photos by blurring out their faces, an act akin to covering the victim. A poster like this exploits and glamourizes the suffering of victims and worse, trivializes it. Somebody should hang the moron who designed that poster in his/her own blood, along with the idiot model who agreed to pose with her titties soaked in fake blood in this poster. Everyone thinks serial killers are cool until they come over and anal rape you or your kids and cover them in their own blood.”
I wrote 3 responses already but decided to let you write the responses instead. I can’t post this on Facebook (see previous blog)
Here’s the original poster that I like better anyway.
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May 23, 2012
Facebook. The final frontier. Who would have thought that a grown man would become so dependent on an online social networking web site? Is this another rant about how unfair Facebook has been to me? Damn right it is. This was the final straw and I stood there feeling helpless once again. Helpless in the sense that I poured a lot of energy into my Facebook profile socially and professionally. My Facebook account has been “disabled” whatever that means. I assume it means deleted. I hope it means temporarily disabled. I’ve had minor run-ins with Facebook before. I’ve had photos and pages removed in the past. I assume it’s from some uptight person that came across my page and was offended by the smallest thing. I’ve watched some people’s profiles with blatant pornography and extreme acts of violence on their page with no problems year after year. I’ve had that profile over 5 years and suddenly –poof- gone.
I’m not the paranoid type (most of the time unless they are after me or you’re after me) but I do feel singled out. I do realize that I am not the only one. Luckily, I am on new medications (see my last blog) and I’m too busy adjusting to spend much time on Facebook or worrying about my dilemma.
The only things that bother me are the many friends I have to track down and the loss of commission artwork I was selling. Facebook took away my income. I can adjust. I have another profile and I’ll be more selective of my posts of my art.
My roommate broke the news to me last Friday morning. I was shocked but I didn’t freak out. I just have to figure out how to find
some of my old “friends” on facebook to add to my back up and now new profile. I’ve been preparing for this moment because of Facebook’s Fascist tendencies as far as their view of censorship. I had too many photographs up to even know what they were censoring. I have been more and more careful since my first of many warnings. I created another profile just in case. I’m not even sure if this is temporary or forever. Facebook is extremely vague with their terminology. Disabled can imply forever or temporary. I’m assuming forever.
On the positive side I do have another profile and I can rebuild and even redefine myself. I can make it mostly a private profile for serious friends, associates and potential buyers of my art and readers of my writing.
I’m just not sure if my lack of caring is due to my new medications, my disorders or actual growth since I have a plan. I guess it doesn’t matter. I’m still Rich Hillen Jr. Whatever that means.
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April 1, 2012
I TRY TO IGNORE THE WHISPERS LOUDER THAN THE SCREAMS. IN DREAMS I WALK WITH YOU. You Roy. I AM TRAVELLING. Always traveling. Moving. New apartment. New house. New CCITEE-Y. NEW STATE. STATE OF MIND. Party goers and house warmers and birthday goers and CHRISTmas mass attendees gather. I know some then I know everyone. I am no one. They don’t see me this way. He doesn’t see me this way. She. You.
MR SANDMAN BRING ME A DREAM.. I know you. I love you LOVE! I carry buckets of paint to your house and the party has just begun. I GET NO KICK FROM CHAMPAGNE either Frank, baby. Seven sisters of love pies stare at me and glare at ME AND THAT LOOK. THAT LOOK. IT SENDS CHILLLS DOWN MY SCARS- inside and outside that run against my heart. Let’s get this CHORDETTEONIAN PARTY STARTED MR JIMMY!
I put my arm around Grandmom to say I love you. People STARING. People caring. Empty people fill the crowded party. Acting hearty. Listing their character defects. Last chance. MY DEAD GRANDMOM TURNS HER HEAD AND SAYS “I KNOW WHAT YOU DID!”
I wake up smoking and drift back along the sea of asphalt, scraping my fat ass and ripping my favorite dream jeans still wondering what I did. WHAT DID I DO THAT GRANDMOM KNOWS I DID? Was it last summer Jennifer Love?
I am alone. ALONE. MY NEWEST OF THE NEW HOUSES. Sir Raleigh comes with news. I thought he said PRESIDENT REAGAN HAD DIED OF INDECENT IMPLOSURE. I didn’t care until I realized he wasn’t just dreaming about my Dream girl locked in his dungeon TIED UP WITH VINES and THE SISTERS OF REJECTION.
GIVE HIM TWO LIPS OF HATRED AND VIOLENCE. RESTRAINING ORDERS, BRIGHT LIGHTS AND SIRENS.
“SHE’S A COKE HEAD” HE SAYS.
“SHE USED TO GIVE BLOW JOBS TO HERMAPHRODITES.” HE SAYS.
My throat fills with vomit and joy. IN DREAMS I DO COKE WITH YOU.
Stolen emotions and borrowed gifts are shared at the airport and train stations and parking lots and I’M STILL NOT SURE WHICH IS WHICH. IN DREAMS I TALK TO YOU. Us is back and you is cornered and still slip away. Reptilian monkeys bred become bread for the children of Elizabethan peasants but I grab two of them and hand them to the girl with ruby slippers and she vanishes like the Dark Knight into the dark night when she hears Bruno approach.
“I’ll whip you now my pretty and your LITTLE MAN too! Hahahahaha” Bruno yells but not enough to find her. I find her in her Old Kentucky home with three wooden porch steps away and I go into seizures. Jules Vern hides Tu-Tu Hundred Feet Under The Sea Under The Porch. I pass out. DUM DUM DUM DUM DUM DUM DUM DUM –DUM DUM DUM DUM DUM. MR SANDMAN WAKES ME. The ape lizards have grown by the time I reach the inside. The Dark Huntress awaits me wearing a smile and a bra. I am excited to see her but worry about poor Mr Vern. Guilt reddens my pink face knowing that I shouldn’t be THERE. The Queen would be quite jealous and take away my deconstructed addictive Kingdom. SHE IS THERE AND SHE IS THERE. IT WAS A DUBIOUS PLAN OF THE HUNTRESS OF DARK TO HAVE Mr Vern under the porch and watch my web of lies unfold. The evil one IS not Bruno and I NOW KNOW WHAT GRANDMOM KNOWS I DID. I JUST DIDN’T DO IT YET WHEN SHE TOLD ME.
Caught in the trap admiring the salamander gorilla’s ability to change in size determined by the cage they are in. I imagine if they were let loose if they could grow bigger than the entire world. My Darling Queen and my Miss Huntress dance and change clothes despite the height and come out laughing at me and yet forgiving me and I feel a calm as MY DEAD GRANDMOM SAYS “ I STILL KNOW WHAT YOU DID.”
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March 9, 2012
Dr Arkmahlk said I was “a chronic chronicler”
Deciphering my voice tones and transcribing my scribblings with determined fury seeking the cure or at least a treatment to
Coherently present me in a way I could pass for human.
I’ve tried the walk –right foot first at a 45-degree angle followed by the left foot at a 27-degree angle outward.
I’ve tried the talk- “I was reading in GQ today that . . .” “I going to get my drink on tonight.”, “How about them Eagles?”
I’ve tried the career- top advertising executive in the firm making over 100 grand a year
I’ve tried the house- a beautiful townhouse in the best neighborhood
I’ve tried the car- classic 1969 black Mustang fully restored and my blue BMW
I’ve tried the wife- beautiful, charming trophy
THE LOOK-
I’ve tried the clothes- tan or black John Varvatos khakis and Brooks Brothers Chinos, Gucci horsefit loafers, argyle socks, colorfully striped Fred Perry Polo shirts or eModa plain, plaid and “revival” button up shirts, and Barney’s vintage leather jackets.
I’ve tired the haircut- closely cropped on the sides and the slightly longer messed spiked hair on top with Enpir brand moisturizing hair gel.
I’ve tried the shave – I shaved every other day to keep the slight 5 o’clock shadow look with short trimmed sideburns.
I’ve tried the teeth- professionally whitened by the best dentists
I’VE TRIED
“Look Doc. I can’t pull this off. I’m an alien to this world and I’ll always be this way. I am not human.” I said.
I sat there with my long unrushed knotted hair, long gray beard, rotting yellow teeth, wearing 2nd hand clothes- t-shirt, jeans and sneakers, unemployed, divorced, no car, no friends and no connection to the human race.
“If this is true you realize that despite Doctor patient confidentiality, I have to report you to the authorities and they will revoke your citizenship to the human race. You will be sent away to an Alienation National Hospital for the Socially Challenged. There, depending on how bad your condition has become, you will be subjected to the constant hammering of your creative instincts and eventually create your own new world or unfortunately, become a casualty like 86.45 % of the patients there to the final escape- non-conformist rejection and Alien alienation to the point where there is nothing or no one left to chronicle. Not even you. You’ll be a shell of instinctual fortitude existing only in your own actions.” Dr Arkmahlk said.
“Any advice then Doc?” I asked my last question to anyone ever.
“Yes. Take 2 of these and you won’t call me in the morning.” He said handing me the cyanide pills.
The last thing I thought was what my grand father used to say to me at bedtime “Good night Irene you jelly bean.”
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February 27, 2012
Events cruising like Al Pacino through
Mutated sexual caravans filled with
Like-minded creatures of the day light
Bump Bump Bump
Her affordable anguish seems to cost
Her fiancé more than her
Mangle is such a felicitous word
Bang Bang Bang
Aortic anvils drop
Falls rapidly in the ruins
It’s delightful to my
Sad eyes
Bye Bye Bye
Exotic dumplings
Fancy affair
Dance
Sing
Cry
Bump
Bang
Bye
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February 21, 2012
Sickness of my psyche
Rapes my body furiously
Like a grape devouring a sunset
Exhausting my entire vessel
I am vacant and wearied
I run in slow motion to
The food truck of love
Careful to avoid every crack along the way
To avoid herniating my dead mother’s discs
Hopscotching the bricks of the city with
Carmelita as she flirts and leads me on and over to
Successive numbered city blocks until she has
Vanished permanently from my sight
I move on lost in the darkly lit city
Lost in my contemplations
I find my filthy white car and
I try to drive it around as people cheer me on
I leave them behind and fall asleep at the wheel
I wake up in my motel room and I try to wake up
And pack a weeks worth of belongings into my
Two suitcases
Panic fills my essence
Relief arrives in the form of Carmelita the motel maid
In my room with the manager telling me to take me time
He lifts her skirt to reveal her big pantyhose covered ass
They tell me to help them and I can stay for free
Arousal versus my need to flee
The sickness of my psyche
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Bagel and Cream Cheese
June 18, 2012Bagels and cream cheese at the end of my street
Comical caravans drive by my feet
Stick it to man and I get stabbed in the back
Ain’t no lovin for me just quite yet
The edge of the park is a nice place to rest
Light a mouthful of grass- the fresh picked best
Share it with the children and get poked with a stick
Ain’t no lovin for me quite just yet
Light three candles at the corner Catholic Church
For the three that I love who never got the hearst
My Sunday best clothes melt a holy water scam
Ain’t no lovin for me quietly quite yet
Oh driver oh driver do drive me away
Far from this level of the story I am stuck
Where the joke has no punch line
And I don’t give a skunk
Ain’t no love for me until I am ready you
Not just quite yet
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