This is a collection of Poetry, Journals and blogs by Rich Hillen Jr dating from 2004-2008. Rich Hillen Jr is an American artist, musician, performer and most importantly a writer. Rich graduated Rowan University, Glassboro NJ with a BA in Communications. He has been writing his entire life.
I Hate Vampires
Her death came as no shock. How can you really expect death to stay alive. She was never there to begin with. A psychic vampire draining every ounce of positive energy from my body. For her it was just a fleeting desire for my “blood”. For me it was everything. For a time she overwhelmed me with her everything. Vampires are good at this. Taking everything while you feel like you are receiving it all. All of the answers to life. The obsession for love, lust, desire, passion, temporary creative inspiration. I thought I had arrived. I woke up one day and I felt empty. She was gone. I was left with an emotional hangover. This isn’t my first vampire attack. For almost 5 years I was obsessed with my ex wife. This was long before we were married. Constantly fantasizing about love and sex with this woman who only wanted to be my friend. I hung on to her for 5 of the longest years of my life trying to get her. I wanted her. She had me under her demonic spell. Taking everything I had to give with nothing in return. One day for whatever reason she gave in to my desires. Maybe she realized I needed something so she gave me her body. But she wasn’t in in when I was. She gave me her “Love” through marriage. She again left herself out of it. I never had her. She took from me emotionally and spiritually until that day she died. I woke up and I felt empty. I had nothing else to offer her. It’s been the same with every vampire since. Suck my blood until I am empty. Then she dies. I am a vampire magnet with poisoned blood. Every one that bites me dies like a bee giving her last sting. She is just another notch in my belt of rejection that will one day be worn around my neck as I hang myself in fear of abandonment. I wonder when one of them will actually give me eternal life.