Suck My Poem (reprise pt1)

August 1, 2011

Sleepless in New Jersey. Catatonic.


Careless. Reckless in my mind. My mind.


Count my fingers to pass time.


Count sheep at 2 in the afternoon.


I’d count my failures but there’s too many.


I’m ok.


You’re ok.


Stuper dooper.


Hands wander over my belly into my tight shorts.


Quick tug to make sure it’s there.


Light a cigarette. Ha. Always light a cigarette.


Sleep 10 hours straight then go out then come back and take a 3 hour nap and woke up 5 pm yesterday.


No sleep yet. Almost. Sort of. Kind of. Ya know? I know


Oh . . . I know.


Doze. Wake. No focus. No nothing nada.


Try to eat. My stomach is bloated from the water and anti stress tea I drank to make up for the coffee and / / /


Ever contemplate death mr Goodpeoples? Not me. Well, not by my own hand.


Sex is a foreign country. Relationships are memories so far buried it’s like I’m reading someone else’s story.


Not hard to understand myself but I always ask why am I like this? I know why. Sometimes I just won’t tell myself.


27 trips to the bathroom. Or was it 30?


My best thinking is when I am in the bathroom or on my way to the bathroom or on way back from the bathroom.


Pay my rent so I can try and sleep. Waiting. Still waiting. Wabbling.


Bullets of words blast through my my my my   . . . .  and hit you softly.


A parade of sweat falls everywhere. . . anywhere. I’m burning.







Fetishes Part 3-Trichophilia: Hair Fetish

February 24, 2011

Fetish. The psychological definition of a fetish is any object or non-genital part of the body that causes a habitual erotic response or fixation. It can also be sub categorized as a paraphilia.

Paraphilia is a biomedical term used to describe sexual arousal to objects, situations, or individuals that are not part of normative stimulation and that may cause distress or serious problems for the paraphiliac or persons associated with him or her. A paraphilia involves sexual arousal and gratification towards sexual behavior that is atypical and extreme. -Wikipedia

This is my 3rd fetish article about trichophilia.(click here to read part 2 and here for part 1)

Trichophilia or hair fetishism is a paraphilia in which one becomes sexually aroused by, or is extremely fond of, human hair; commonly head hair.

Arousal may occur from imagery and physical contact of hair, this includes head hair, pubic hair, axillary hair and fur. Head hair arousal may come from watching or touching very long hair, hair cutting, long bangs, red hair (freckle fetishism), wet hair, new hairstyles, permanent wave etc.

Long hair fetishism as well as haircut fetishism seems to be common, since there are hundreds of web sites and forums devoted to both these forms of fetishisms, based in countries around the world. Especially the haircut fetish is apparently a secret, largely unknown or little discussed by the media, or even acknowledged in Western culture. –Wikipedia

There was a girl I used to hang out with at my favorite watering hole years ago. She had the best hair. She had long black full hair halfway down her back. She never made an effort to put any work into it either. She washed it and combed it and let it fall as is. “As is” was perfect. You’re probably thinking I have Trichophilia about now but this girl’s hair could give anyone a temporary case of Trichophilia,

She told me a story about a man stopping her on the street and offered her $1,000 to “cum” on her hair. She politely declined in her usual non-chalant way. She wasn’t shocked easily. I told her she should have done it. We had a good laugh and went on with our night. My hair was long at the time and wondered if I would have taken the money.

I guess I’ve been aware of a hair fetish but never thought much about it until I googled it and found hundreds of sites talking about it, showing pics and videos. I find it interesting that people have various fetishes and paraphilia. It’s also interesting that it’s mostly men that have them statistically.

So, ladies, when your running your fingers through your hair or flipping it around so men will notice keep in mind that there might be a trichophiliac in the room or on the street of sitting next to you right now.




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